I had two different revelations this week. The first was quite the epiphany.
I found out this week that I am going to be an aunt, again. Now, I am an only child so any nieces and nephews I get will be through my husband's brothers. Well, the younger one that has been dating a girl with two young kids by two different dads is the one having a baby. I won't go into all the particulars, but I was driving that day after my husband told me, and I started worrying about him and what he was going to do. Asking myself questions like: how is he going to financially provide for the baby, are they going to get married now, etc, etc?
Then it hit me. I shouldn't care. I know that sounds harsh, but I always do that. I worry and worry and make myself sick. I stress myself out over other peoples shit. So, I decided that I didn't care about all that. I was going to spoil that kid and make the best of the situation.
The second incident happened while at the office. See, I am taking a trip in the fall to Chicago to meet with some fellow twitter/online/fanfic friends. We have made all the plans and I am so excited about it. So, when I went to the office this week for our weekly meeting, I submitted my time off request. My friend that actually works under me asked me point blank where I was going. Not having time to really explain, I said I was going to Chicago to meet with some Twilight online friends.
Well, her response was not what I would have liked. See, none of my real life friends know the extent of my fanfic/twitter obsession and they definitely don't know about me reading or writing slash stories. I live in the South and I hate to say it, but it would be frowned upon and you know what, it is really none of their business.
My 'friend' laughed out loud and basically said in not too nice a way that I was crazy and I didn't even know these people. She really hurt my feelings. I didn't expect her to jump for joy but she could have at least not been so mean about it. It made me really think about the difference between real life friends and online friends. Oh, we are still friends and she hasn't said anything else about it, but it still stings a bit.
The main point of this post is to say thank you to all my twitter/online friends that were outraged in my defense. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I still hold that going to Chicago is going to be fun and it will be so great to finally meet some of you gals in person. I figure my friend is the one missing out on some wonderful people by being so narrow minded. We will continue to be friends, but she will not influence any decisions I make about my life.
So, my revelation is this: I am going to not worry so much about what other people do or think and just enjoy my life. I know that this is easier said then done, but I am going to try my darndest. :D